FAMILY

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.

ITS ONLY BEEN 3 MONTH SINCE ATA PASSED AWAY..

BUT THERE WERE SO MUCH THINGS HAD HAPPEN.

IM SCARED THAT MY FAMILY WILL TURN OUT BREAK INTO PIECES.

EVERYDAY FIGHT. EVERYDAY BROKEN HEARTED. RUDENESS THAT NEVER GONE.

THIS HAD TOTALY CHANGE. MY LIFE IS MISERABLE.

ITS HURT TO SEE MY ON BLOOD FIGHT, HURT EACH OTHER, SCREAM ON THEIR FACE

TALK ABOUT EACH OTHER, NO TOLERANCE.. I JUST WISH THINGS CHANGE BACK.

I JUST WANT THAT HAPPY FAMILY.

I JUST WANT BOTH OF THEM TO BE HEALTHY, TO BE HAPPY..

I WANT TO BE THERE FOR EVERYONE WHENEVER THEY NEED ME EVENTHOUGH 

THEY WERE NOT THERE FOR ME.. I MIGHT BE ANNOYING BUT NEVER GONNA LEAVE 

ANY OF THEM ALONE. NEVER.  EVEN I'VE BEEN HURT THOUSAND TIMES..

I WILL STILL STAND BESIDE THEM TO HOLD THEM WHEN THEY FALL.

FOR NOW, SEE YA. 

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

LIFE IS AN UNEXPECTED ROAD

Assalamualaikum 

life change time by time. never expected to be like this.

if only my dad was still here with us. 

semester break doesnt feel right without him. 

my life totaly change. full new start. how hard it were.

im changing, changing to a monster. to something i dont even know.

something that i never one to be..

crying, crying that all i can ever did..

trying so hard. fighting so bad. but i cant help myself from the anger that i've been kept 

my whole life. from a good girl. from a nice sister. from a reliable daughter i've becoming 

something that i myself annoyed of

to whom should i share dis? to whom should i cry out my eyes?

im all alone keep my hatred inside and its now it killing me inside.

im desperate, im stressfully to the point of dying.  

i hated the fact that i hate all of them, i even hate my ownself, my life,my surrounding.

every single thing that connected to me.

ya Allah, please give the strength to go through all of this things..

Assalamualaikum